It hurts

It's all lies, a disguise.

to cover up my lost soul.

I want a valentine

When do you think it will all become clear?

I don't know what to do with myself.

All I can do is wait, wait, and wait.

I'm tired of waiting, no progress has been made whatsoever with waiting.

And I really don't have a life so there is no reason to have bad grades. So I have  decided That I want to reach the highest grades I've ever got on a report card. 

However I will probably give up on this soon enough cause I'm a worthless annoying piece of shit.

I fucking hate this town and the fucking assholes that live here, and no I'm not just talking about the homophobic fucks who make fun of me everyday, but they are a big part of it. 

I can't take aymore of this shit.

Fuck You.

oh yeah

my new best friend

~_-

I miss my best friend.

I just ordered shoes online again, they will probably not fit right AGAIN

There was a never a worst time to be alone.

I don't like anyone here.

my mom is going to work in newbury now, And i want to ask her If I can go to newbury high school!

however, as always, I'm  afraid to ask or tell my mom things. But I will ask her eventually.I just need some time to grow some balls.

this week has started off HORRIBLE. And it will only continue to get worst.

My best friend is going to texas the day after tomorow so I will probably watching what I like about you everday for the rest of the week.

xo

i wonder

if I am lindsay lohans fraternal twin

not what you would think

but you make me sick.

I'm really going to try

All the things I want.( for the time being)

Some more friends.

A friend thats a boy or a boyfriend;)

And a Car and a job and some clothes..

Why is it so hard to find some decent clothes for a gay man in camarillo!???????????

But really, Sorry If I have seem depressed lately. It is all going to change. I'm not going to waste my time being depressed anymore.

It's not your fault. It was mine all along.

insides

Where did everyone in my life go?

It feels like everyone got on a train and left me behind.

What did I do?? I have no one anymore.

Every night, I think of how It will get better soon, but it hasn't. It's only been getting worst.

I make believe that things are okay, but they really aren't. I can't take this anymore, I want my life back, my friends, my family that used to love me.

I guess I need someone new for me.

I'm running out of time, and I can't keep on like this.

Everything isn't what it seems

It's sad how much you have changed. I mean, I liked it at first, but now it's too much. It's hard to explain, but we're falling apart..